Thursday, March 3, 2011

Lesson of Life

it's been months i never update myself in the blog...
phew~~~
was too busy with my SAB Trading biz lately...

it was a heart wrenching day for me...
learned a good lesson of life today!!!
never ever tolerate with others minor mistakes...
not even once...
because no one will appreciate it...

i admit that i was being too busy lately & i've been neglecting our assignments...
but i really tried my best to perform here...
do you all think i've never make amendment for u guys in the past assignments tis few years???
i've been doing that silently as i noe, 
those minor mistakes or reference thingy,
i can settle it... that's why i never bother to mention bout it to u all...
but only for once...
only once, i made this kind of mistakes
u say like i'm gonna fail the assignments... 
even worse, like i'm going to make u all unable to graduate

it was the hardest moment i've ever had in my student life...
all this while, how we are being treated...
i never kept in my heart
but this incident awoken me...
we're no longer like before...
& thanks for showing me a valuable lesson in life
that makes me grow...

all i wanna say is:
'what goes around, comes around'

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Gain and Loss

people always say...
when you gain something, at the same time u'll loss something...
i personally do not really believe in this kind of sayings
until lately...
i experienced it myself...

i'm having a 'not-so-good' feeling lately about Us...
& i don't know how to express it...

everything starts when You started ur biz recently...
U have less time for me...
U have called me less...
U have smsed me less...
Worse, even when U called or sms...
U're not asking bout Me...
it's always related to the biz...

I used to disturb U @ update my condition here with U when U're not around
but I can't do it now anymore~~~
Ur time is so precious for appointments & meetings...

people says I should be happy @ grateful...
as U're doing all this for our future...
but I really missed the time we  had before~~~
although that time we have less $$$,
but at least we're happy together...
spending leisure together...
but now, everyday U're having appointments...
even though U're at home,
U're busy having online discussion with Ur partners
@ Ur potential partners...

I'd always shared my problems with U
but now,
I don't even dare to tell you anything about them...
What I'll get from U now???
not a single word of care or support...
but complains & 'lectures'...
i can't tell you all this anymore...

when U promised an iPhone as a present...
I was really happy that time...
but by the time we're on our way to Maxis center,
that happy feelings no longer exists...
I'd rather you have more time for me...
just like before~~~

it's been nearly 2 months we never went out for a date...
or even a short walk...
just You & Me...
nothing in our mind, just one another~~~
Sis asked bout the coming Valentine's planning...
weird~~
I don't know how to answer her...
as 14th is the closing date for Jan Sales...
I know U'll be damn busy chasing for closing
I don't even dare to imagine that you'll have any planning for Us...

U don't even realize my FB updates...
so do this post...
i'm sure U won't notice this post...
mayb U're not even aware of the existence of my blog~~~


hope that this kind of feeling will subside very soon...

Sunday, January 16, 2011

♥ 3 Days 2 Nights Trip to TTDI ♥

just went back from SAB company trip to TTDI
Tasik Temenggor Discovery Island at Perak...
it's a private island co-owned by Steve & Arthur (founder of SAB M'sia)

what a busy & enjoying week where
went to Taiping & Penang on Monday...
spent Tuesday in Kedah...
Wednesday till Thursday at TTDI...

it's a great trip there to be so close to the nature
with no internet connections nor network signals...
our main transportation there is boats...:P
spending time with many successful traders there...
sharing thoughts & experiences...
also gaining lots of knowledge from multi-millionaire presidentials...
spending time with orang asli & getting to know more about them
it's really a great experience there...
1st time looking at rafflesia buds...
1st time been to an orang asli village...

the most important part is that i learned a lot of life lessons from the trip...
May (founding Presidential of SAB) was very right...
everyday we spent a lot of time... figuring out so many stupid things
'how ppl think about us?' 'how ppl look at us?' 'what ppl talk about us?' and so on...
but ask urself...
what's the 1st thing u do in the morning when u wake up?
who's the 1st person that u thought of?
ur parents? ur siblings? ur frens? or URSELF!!!
it's urself that cares the most...
it's the same when comes to others...
who is that free to spend so much time on u???
please la...
everyone is so busy thinking about themselves only
but bcos of ur own thoughts & perceptions
it stops u from advancing further...
isn't it stupid??
as long as u never harm ppl and yet, u can be urself
and u can be successful...
y not give it a try?? y not give urself a chance??

i really appreciated this a trip so much that
these conversations with these multi-millionaires really open up my mind...
looking forward for my next trip to TTDI (private island) with SAB...

on our way to TTDI~~~

TTDI Belum Resort

view of Tasik Temenggor on the tower on Pulau Tali Kail


waterfall on one of the island there...


rafflesia bud... c u in bloom 9 months later...

view of the cafeteria at Belum Resort

morning breeze~~

Friday, January 7, 2011

Optimists always Successful~~~

optimists always see opportunity in every difficulty; while
pessimists always see difficulty in every opportunity...

i've been so down these few days
being ignored by potential customers...

Dear kept on giving me supports...
asking me not to give up~~~
actually i was down not bcos of facing failure...
it's bcos Dear is working so hard for our future but i can't help much...

Dear was so optimistic & not giving up...
all the time,
he gives me support & assistance...
till this evening, i received his call...
he found great bunch of pharmacies to cooperate with him~~~

it's a big big improvement for us...
i am so so so so proud of U, Dear...
ur optimistic & hardwork finally pays off...

Love You Dear...
seems like our dream will come true very very soon~~~

Sunday, January 2, 2011

01.01.2011

so fast it's New Year~~~
the 1st day of New Year is not a really good start for me though...
HAIZ~~~
woke up with a great fall...
hurt my left arm & left leg...
T.T
really sui...
after than missed breakfast & lunch
cos went to meet with customers...
at the meeting, met another master...
she said my name not suits me...
not good for me...
might need to change name...
lolz~~~
so many years d, now only change name...
@@
come home received msg from customer...
haiz...
having some problem with the deal...
all the bad things happen to me...
damn it!!!
hope everything will b fine tomorrow...
really tried my best to make the deal works...
hope SHE appreciates what i've done for her...

GOD, pls forgive me...
bless me...
i need YOU!!!

Friday, December 10, 2010

Love ♥ Suicide

was busy preparing for my finals this few days
SM oh SM~~~
when i was blurring around relaxing my mind,
i came across to a disappointing news in FB last nite
a fren shared out a link of the 'last note' of a guy who took his own life over a gal

he was a 22 yr old, quite good looking guy
took his own life, jumping down from his 14th floor home
after breaking up with his GF who he dated for 4 months...

为女死,为女亡 (die because of a girl)
is what most ppl commented on his deed...
there are so many different opinions for his death~~~
some uttered hatred on his ex GF saying that she caused his death
while some expressed condolences for his stupid act~~~
some extreme ppl even scolded on his FB saying that he will no RIP,
adding that ppl who choose to suicide does not have the right to RIP~~~
wow... his death has become a great issue drawing so many attentions

i personally felt sad for his family & friends for the loss
but it's not a sympathy to his death...
it was his choice...
the life was his, & he's the one who chose to end it~~~
no one shud be blamed for his loss
including his ex GF...
in his 'last note' he mentioned a lot of memories of him & his ex GF
saying that the 4 months time is the happiest moment in his life,
but why now he chose to end his life???
is this the right way to prove to someone how much u love her???
by committing suicide for her???
& leaving a haunting memory in her life???
is this true love???
u have the courage to jump down, but u don't have the courage to move on
also,
in his 'last note'
he begged for forgiveness on behalf of his ex GF
saying that it was not her fault...
it was just 'SHE GAVE HIM THE COURAGE TO END HIS LIFE'
what rubbish are you talking about here...
if you don't want to put her into hot soup bcos of ur suicide
why on earth u make ur suicide plan in public???
u have the mood to snap ur last crying pic 
& writing a bilingual last note before posting in ur FB...
i can't really understand what's ur motive doing all this stuffs
u thought that u'll be memory in ur ex GF???
NO~~~
it's not a memory...
it's a haunting tragedy that might disturb her for the rest of her life
now that everyone is hunting for her for opinion
ur selfish deed has brought sadness & distress to all the ppl around you

there's always a saying...
only the left behind people is the saddest when you leave...
now that u're gone~~~
not feeling anything but what about the one who are still here???

there are so many ppl out there struggling for their life
but you just end yours like that...
you've never respected your life...
& you never appreciated your parents' effort in bringing u up~~~
well, maybe there's only LOVE in your life
that nothing else can take over it
that you chose to end your life...

now that there's no 'Take 2' in life~~~
may your soul rests in peace
if u do have a chance to be human in ur next life
pls, appreciate ur life...
v ask for life, not for death~~~

to those out there who are having the intention to suicide...
pls think twice~~~
think about the one who loves you....
they needs You!!!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

My Way, My Responsibility

i realized that i've been complaining a lot lately...
i don't know why...
maybe it's bcos of some changes in terms of attitudes of the ppl around me
or is it I'm the one who changed???

sometimes we'll be in doubt
whether is it we are going away from our friends?
or is it they are the one leaving us?

no matter how it goes,
when 1 of us made the first move...
everything will back into its place
like nothing has happened before...

i've been spending less time at home this semester...
these few days during study break,
everyday i spent studying & revising at home...
i realized something~~~

Daddy has grew old...
he hurt his arm few days ago
but due to some sickness, 
he can't use medications to reduce the pain or the inflammation
looking at his greyish hair & wrinkled hands...
i realized that Daddy's getting older...
the most important Man in my life
the one who had dedicated his whole life for us three

few weeks ago,
i've been to a job fair organized in my uni
there's a 'Work & Travel to USA' plan specially designed for uni students
to experience the life in USA
undeniably, I was very attracted to it
it needs around RM10k for all the expenses to be in USA
i did planned to work for few months after i graduated
then i'll go for the plan~~~

but now I realized that I can't be so selfish
Daddy & Mummy have been working their almost 3 quarter of their life to raise us
now that it's my turn to do something
to reduce their burden...

just like 2nite...
Daddy told me that his arms aches a lot at night
till he couldn't sleep...
my tears almost fell onto my cheeks when i heard that
but there's nothing I can do
other than to keep him accompanied
& to comfort him...
I need to graduate as planned...
He's been putting a lot of hope & expectations on me
I knew it...
I can't let Him down anyway~~~
and also Mummy...
They have been working so hard for us~~~
I can't let Them down...

LEE WAI SUM
kambate in ur finals...
u only left 2 semesters to push ur CGPA even higher...
You know You can Do It!!!