it's been a long time since i last blogged... was having a great time for the past 2 months... went to Taiping for a 4-days trip... Had a memorable Valentine's then... Everything was just fine until the new sem starts... It's just barely 3 months v're together but v ad have numerous arguments n misunderstanding... However, they're no big deals as they are really small cases n shud not be remembered... But as time passes on, what i ask from him is getting more n more... Actually I din ask much from him... Just b more responsible to himself n to others... Be more serious to himself and rubbed of that 'i-dont-care' image from others... What i get is a sentence... "That's who I am"
I really dun wanna add more pressures to him but I get really mad when he sometimes he behave like a small kid... Tat 'i-dont-care' attitude him really makes me frustrated... As a result, i kept nagging him n even argued with him... I really hate it when I did all this... Makes me feel that I'm very irritating... Until last Thursday when I stayed back at their apartment to celebrate a fren's bday... We have another argument again... I was really really sad that time... My heart never feel that pain b4... For the 1st time, the intention of breaking-up floats in my mind... I oso thought of leaving immediately but when I thought of my bday fren, i gathered my sadness, wiped off my tears & do other things... Few minuted later, he came forward n again, v make it up...
I'll start to think is it I'm asking too much from him??? Or I should accept him for who he is??? I really dunno... As time goes on, the times of me thinking if we really suits to each other getting more and more... One of my friends told me b4 that he's not the one for me... That we are different people and not suitable for each other... What shud I do now??? On one side, I really dont wanna giv up now, but on the other side, I'm really suffering now... Everytime I think bout this ques, tears'll flow down my cheeks n it's like thousands arrows piercing into my heart...
