Friday, December 10, 2010

Love ♥ Suicide

was busy preparing for my finals this few days
SM oh SM~~~
when i was blurring around relaxing my mind,
i came across to a disappointing news in FB last nite
a fren shared out a link of the 'last note' of a guy who took his own life over a gal

he was a 22 yr old, quite good looking guy
took his own life, jumping down from his 14th floor home
after breaking up with his GF who he dated for 4 months...

为女死,为女亡 (die because of a girl)
is what most ppl commented on his deed...
there are so many different opinions for his death~~~
some uttered hatred on his ex GF saying that she caused his death
while some expressed condolences for his stupid act~~~
some extreme ppl even scolded on his FB saying that he will no RIP,
adding that ppl who choose to suicide does not have the right to RIP~~~
wow... his death has become a great issue drawing so many attentions

i personally felt sad for his family & friends for the loss
but it's not a sympathy to his death...
it was his choice...
the life was his, & he's the one who chose to end it~~~
no one shud be blamed for his loss
including his ex GF...
in his 'last note' he mentioned a lot of memories of him & his ex GF
saying that the 4 months time is the happiest moment in his life,
but why now he chose to end his life???
is this the right way to prove to someone how much u love her???
by committing suicide for her???
& leaving a haunting memory in her life???
is this true love???
u have the courage to jump down, but u don't have the courage to move on
also,
in his 'last note'
he begged for forgiveness on behalf of his ex GF
saying that it was not her fault...
it was just 'SHE GAVE HIM THE COURAGE TO END HIS LIFE'
what rubbish are you talking about here...
if you don't want to put her into hot soup bcos of ur suicide
why on earth u make ur suicide plan in public???
u have the mood to snap ur last crying pic 
& writing a bilingual last note before posting in ur FB...
i can't really understand what's ur motive doing all this stuffs
u thought that u'll be memory in ur ex GF???
NO~~~
it's not a memory...
it's a haunting tragedy that might disturb her for the rest of her life
now that everyone is hunting for her for opinion
ur selfish deed has brought sadness & distress to all the ppl around you

there's always a saying...
only the left behind people is the saddest when you leave...
now that u're gone~~~
not feeling anything but what about the one who are still here???

there are so many ppl out there struggling for their life
but you just end yours like that...
you've never respected your life...
& you never appreciated your parents' effort in bringing u up~~~
well, maybe there's only LOVE in your life
that nothing else can take over it
that you chose to end your life...

now that there's no 'Take 2' in life~~~
may your soul rests in peace
if u do have a chance to be human in ur next life
pls, appreciate ur life...
v ask for life, not for death~~~

to those out there who are having the intention to suicide...
pls think twice~~~
think about the one who loves you....
they needs You!!!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

My Way, My Responsibility

i realized that i've been complaining a lot lately...
i don't know why...
maybe it's bcos of some changes in terms of attitudes of the ppl around me
or is it I'm the one who changed???

sometimes we'll be in doubt
whether is it we are going away from our friends?
or is it they are the one leaving us?

no matter how it goes,
when 1 of us made the first move...
everything will back into its place
like nothing has happened before...

i've been spending less time at home this semester...
these few days during study break,
everyday i spent studying & revising at home...
i realized something~~~

Daddy has grew old...
he hurt his arm few days ago
but due to some sickness, 
he can't use medications to reduce the pain or the inflammation
looking at his greyish hair & wrinkled hands...
i realized that Daddy's getting older...
the most important Man in my life
the one who had dedicated his whole life for us three

few weeks ago,
i've been to a job fair organized in my uni
there's a 'Work & Travel to USA' plan specially designed for uni students
to experience the life in USA
undeniably, I was very attracted to it
it needs around RM10k for all the expenses to be in USA
i did planned to work for few months after i graduated
then i'll go for the plan~~~

but now I realized that I can't be so selfish
Daddy & Mummy have been working their almost 3 quarter of their life to raise us
now that it's my turn to do something
to reduce their burden...

just like 2nite...
Daddy told me that his arms aches a lot at night
till he couldn't sleep...
my tears almost fell onto my cheeks when i heard that
but there's nothing I can do
other than to keep him accompanied
& to comfort him...
I need to graduate as planned...
He's been putting a lot of hope & expectations on me
I knew it...
I can't let Him down anyway~~~
and also Mummy...
They have been working so hard for us~~~
I can't let Them down...

LEE WAI SUM
kambate in ur finals...
u only left 2 semesters to push ur CGPA even higher...
You know You can Do It!!!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

FrienDshiP Forever???

how many times in life do we repeat the phrase:
'FRIENDSHIP FOREVER'
i could still remember
in my primary school days, when there are friends following their
family transferring to other states...
we'll stand a chance to jot down some words & out personal details
in a lil book called... 'biography'
never missing a 'MUST' sentence at the end of our notes...
'Friends Forever' @ 'Friendship Forever'

but who actually can promises this???
you? you? or you
all these years
i've experienced it many times...
friendship since kindergarten can breaks easy as ABC...
i seems to have lose confidence in this phrase...
i no longer believe in what so called Friends Forever...
is it a good thing? or a bad thing?
i don't really know...

until today~~~
 yrs friendship starts shaking as if there was an earthquake
it no longer matter much though~~~
it's nothing to surprise about
everyone have their own traits & characteristics
if ppl can stand urs, but u can't stand theirs...
that's it~~~

turn around & say v're no longer friends~~~
if you think you're that good that ppl don't deserve your friendship
fine~~~
but y shud U bad-mouth ppl in front of others???
what u get from it???
U think U're really that good???
nobody is perfect...
life is like a circle....
how u treated ppl today,
is how u are going to be treated tomorrow...

People who are bad-mouthing others out there...
Good Luck~~~